The school year is almost over witch also happens to be the last year for school for me since I graduate soon. I am going to college this fall but I really see that as somthing completely different. I have been thinking back to when I first got to my high school I thought it was kind of kool because there is only one high school here so I got to see people I knew from like elementary school that went to the other middle school after elementary school. Though I never feared the high school I knew I still had my friend from middle school well really she was a friend for all my life so I never worried about loseing her. I guess I should have now looking back. To make a long story short form the second semester on we really drift apart not completely we were still friends just we were not as close as we were when we started high school. I hadn’t noticed until this year so I tryed to get our friend ship back but that seemed to be hard cause she had replaced me with my friend Erick. So I started to secretly to hate Erick. I prayed every night that they would fight or somthing that would give me the chance to get that friendship back that I once had with my life time friend and one day… I got what I wanted. Erick got a boyfriend and started to have less time for my friend so she got angery with him and I saw this and I capitalized on it and asked her what she was doing over brack and she said nothing and I asked then if she wanted to come over and she said yes. for like 3 weeks I got what I wanted I had that friend ship back that I wanted back. But there was a price to pay for this I had to stop talking to Erick witch I didnt like because even though I secretly hated him he was a good friend and I didnt want to stop talking to him but I did so I could have my friend back. Now like I said for 3 weeks I had my friend back… but after that it fell apart slowly until it just crashed in burned. I had to deal with her and her friend Niki and I hated it all they did was bitch about everyone and everything I but up with it for awile but finnaly I remembered something… I remembered that my friend had, had controle over me at one time like she had now back in 9th grade and that was why I stopped talking to her then so I decided to start just talking to Erick kind of in secret then finnaly I just decided it was dumb and didnt care if she knew I talked to him or not and talked to him again she didnt know until lunch that day and I sat at his lunch table with Jon and Tim. By sitting at that lunch table I had committed treason to our 18 year friendship and there was now no taking it back what I had done. After that it quickly went down hill. I tried talking to her the other night but it is too late. Looking back to the events that lead up to this I blame life. That is what killed our friend ship. The fact that life just changes people to ware they grow apart. I don't think I did the wrong thing by doing this me and her were to completely different people and I was not happy being her friend I was happy being Erick friend. This is not to say I’m not sad that we are no longer talking that dose make me sad. As high school keeps getting closer to ending I have I knew that our friendship would end but I never thought that it would end like this I never wanted it to end like this. Now I really don’t have much keeping me here… when I can I will leave this place ware I will go I’m not 100% sure yet I have ideas but if high school has tough me one thing that is time changes people and that your friends will never just stay the same somtimes the change is good sometimes its not….
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