Well the other day I mad it know that me and Sandra arnt friends. The one thing though that I dont like about all this I just wish she knew how much it killed me to ignor her and to tell her no every time I said no I wanted to say I for give you lets just go back to the way it was and everything would just be fine but I knew I couldnt. She has to be the one to say sorry to me she is the wrong one even though I want to take the fall again and just put things back. I wont though cause if I do that again she is going to walk all over me again but the thing is that I dont think she really knows that she is doing it she just sees she is having fun.
She texted me after school wile I was at my friend ambers house. She wanted me not to be mad at her but really the thing was Im not mad at her I'm just not happy that she just cant see what she did wrong. I tryed to exsplan it to her but she just wont bug to her im the wrong one. I will admit that I'm not exthakly the perfuct BF ya I got jellus and got mad at her a few times. I tryed to get her to do somthings my way like trying to get her to stop smokeing and doing weed and shit. But she went back on all of them so I got mad. She always said she loved me but I really think in the in she said it and didnt mean it. I'm not saying she didnt have feelings for me Im just saying I dont think love true love was one of though feelings.
So in the end im going to just have to press on with out her. As hard as it feels for me to do that I will I really dont want to and I would take her back if she diched the trash and said sorry but I know that wont happen. Maybe one day she will see what she did wrong and she will come back in listen to me. All I wanted was for her to be safe and happy but I guess she just dosnt want that. I just hope that nothing bad happens to her and she will be happy with or with out me and she is treated right.
- Mike
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