Head acks and sickness

Lattly I have felt just so strest out between Sandra and school and all the things I have to do with BOCES and my final stuff I have to with my class there. It has caused me just not wanting to come and before all this I liked coming to school if not for school at least BOCES (just not english days). The only time im happy is when Im home in bed taking a nap. I just dont know how to deal with thew stress.

I know carol she is because she's got the same thing going on with her college classes. I feel like I shouldnt feel so strest at some points when I think of her cause she has more to be strest about than I do. Still Sandra plays a big roll in why I feel sick somtimes I feel like I'am being to protective of her and shit. I did the same with Sarah too and well I lost her pain fully. I think its just I still see sandra as if me and her were still going out I just hate to think of her with a nother guy that I have no control over so I cant stop them from hitting her and abuseing her if I could control that then I would have no problem with her and other guys. I just hate that she thinks its not going to happen to her but with the guys she likes to be around at some point it will im afrade. It just makes me sick to my stumic that could happen and she dosent see I do care and I only want whats best for her thats realy why I want to be back with her is so I can have that control to say no and not have it turn in to a big fight. I'm not afrade to lose my power over her I'm afrade to lose her.

So in the end thats what has been going on. Once again its the middle of the day and its Wednesday so somthing might happen and im sure it will. She says she isnt going to hang out with anyone this week but I dont realy think that will happen shes to hot for her not to do nothing. I also think I might start doing quick me to days and post them here insted of doing these long blog entrys I just need to get battery for my cam.

 

- Mike