What's on my mind

Lastly for some reathen I've been thinking of my friend Sarah. I really don't know why though. I dont know really know what started it I think it was Sandra cause Sandra really reminds me of Sarah so I worrie about Sandra a lot. Sarah was vary importin to me she was my friend I thought of her like idk a sister I always left it up to me to try and protect her. I guess it started when we were pretending to go out so that her parents didnt know that her bf bought her a ring so we told them I bought it. That was probably one the best times I had. When me and her were siting on her couch holding hands with her I never wanted it to end. Well I guess all good things have to come to an end. But not like it did. It was my birthday and she was suppose to come to out back stake house with me and my family but she got in to some shit that she borrowed her cuz's cell phone and her cuz said she stole it. That hole day I had a bad feeling. I wanted to tell her that if she had anything with her bf's name on it to hide it. But I thought I was just losing it so I left and went to dinner and had a good time. The next day I went to school she wasnt in home room and then I knew something was wrong. I went to lunch and then I saw her she was talking to some girl and I walked tord her and as I got closer I saw the her eye it was black and blue her arm was kind of cut at fist I thought it was her bf that did it. I was like 10 seconds from kicking his ass. But she told me what happened then I want to fucking kick her step moms ass for beating Sarah. Well she went sarah went threw alot of shit she moved out and then we found out her bf was cheating on her I told her and she never believed anyone so she cheated on him then they broke up they were apart for a wile and she kind of became a whore she just fucked every guy she could I worried about her every night. She moved in with these 2 guys at one point. She ended up leaving cause the one wanted to fuck her but she didnt want to so he kicked her out. She was home less for like a week and a half. I remember cause every night I wanted to go down and get and bring her back here so she had some place warm to stay but I was affiad I'd get caught sneaking out. One night it raid and I cried my self to sleep cause I wanted to go get her so bad. Well the next day she got back with her bf cause he at least offered her a place to stay and that's ware she's been I saw her for like a mouth this year then she stopped coming to school. Its hard really to say why we hate her bf or at least most of us that are friends with her. I guess its just cause he changed her and not for the better. But I guess what's been bugging me is Sandra reminds me so much of sarah and I loved sarah with ever inch of my hart and I'd do anything for her but when she need me I felt like I couldn't do nothing cause I was scared to and I feel like I let her down and I hate my self for that.

 

(me and Sarah over the summer)